21... an age where u begin to decide wat u wanna do, where u wanna be... nobody is gonna tell u wat u need to do and how u should go about doing it anymore... so follow yr heart and do wat u deem fit... and support would be with you always, just like it always has been...

we are ppl of few words... or at least i am... so some things are not said sometimes, but tt doesn't mean tt they aren't there...

a new page has started for all of us... a continuation of the previous chapter or a new storyline or both?

and yes... the photo exists...

Hurt, disappointment, frustration are the emotions that now threaten to engulf and rob me of my entire sanity.... I tried to clear my mind, close my eyes and sleep but i couldn't. I asked myself am i dreaming? I hope all these are not true.. But unfortunately, it is.. It did happened and i am just totally stunned.
Why? Why do it when you already know its wrong? What's wrong with you? You know how much it hurts and upsets me?
And him, i still can't believe it he actually did that... The facade that he had shown me over these years has now faded in an instant, unveiling a totally horrible and disgusting side.
Come to think of it, why am i so concerned for what? Just because i am close to you? So what? Still who am i to you to feel such anguish and pain? Should i just try to erase the whole thing and treat it like nothing happened? Or should i just not bother in whatever you do?
I hate it. I hate getting hurt time and time again.
What have i done in my previous life to reap this got damn negativity?
Why am i always getting hurt when everything around seems to go well and fine? Why? Why is fate so fond of bringing me to the top of mountain and throwing me down deep into the abyss from there?
It seems to me i can't love or adore a person cos in the end, that very person will be the one to hurt me very deeply. Not once has this happened...
I am sorry. Okay, really sorry cos i can't be there with you whenever you needed support. I can't give you the encouragement or support that you had wanted from me. And because of that, you turned to someone else of the wrong choice and consequently made that mistake. If i had been more sensitive and thoughtful, would all these have happened?
No use lamenting now.. What's the point? What's done can't be undone... Who to blame? Me, myself...
Tsang Yew, i am really tired.. i really had enough of all these.. How i wish i could also join you australia in pursuit of Medicine... I hate this place already.... It has brought me more painful memories than happiness.. If I could, i want to leave this place forever, leaving behind and shutting away those who had hurt me...
To whoever it concerns: whatever you said to me, i will keep to my promise and not tell anyone. If you don't believe me, fine.. I don't wish to argue anymore..

Finally a chapter ends, and a new chapter unfolds..

My chapter.

Sadly, its more like a new story instead of a continuation from the previous.. where are the original characters?? I can't wait to come back!!

Hey btw.. what happened to the 3 musketeers? A term that bradon has designated for the three of us? Come to think of it, we've never taken a photo together. Just the 3 of us... have we??

Brandon>>
Regardin my friend's blog, I can give u the URL if you come online.. but keep to to yourself. You'll be able to find some pictures of me there i think.. i think la... haha

and so a chapter ends... and i'm waiting for the next chapter to begin...

to bra: hey, i'm not doing the ipod survey thingy... sceptical about free stuff, as i did for MLM... and apprehensive, esp when a mailing add is required... and oh ya... did you read the terms of service and privacy policy? point is, businesses use the pt tt consumers tend not to read such stuff to their advantage... pretty much like not reading the small print... and u find yrself getting more than u bargained for... off-topic: if u're wondering where the link to tty's roommate is, it's now taken down, as requested, and put as a draft post tt u can access to when u log in to blogger...

went for the ntu and nus open house recently, together with lei^3 and yixiang... first time to ntu... v big place... and i came to the conclusion tt i must bring a bicycle on the 1st day of school and put it at the hostel...

we were on our way to nus from ntu and trying to physcho lei^3 to join the dark side aka ntu when we boarded bus 95... just to discover tt ntu had a evil plot going on... lol... bus 95, which goes to nus, had handgrip ads from ntu! u noe, those kinda doorknob do nt disturb ads... lol... and across the street was a bus fully clad as a ntu ad... ntu's everywhere! lol... and to think tt it was ntu tt provided a shuttle service at clementi, which i would think of as a nus place... nus-clementi and ntu-boon lay yah? join the dark side!

yap, finally settled down to actually slug though my blog links and update them... a lot of them got buried under the dust (aka died)... pretty much expected... but hmmm... didn't knew tt tty's blog got revived (again)... and tt someone actually had 2 blogs... O.o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jeNvxUcMUDI&eurl= (provided by bra) some army 'music video' lol...

happy b'day lei lei lei lei lei lei lei lei lei!!!

lol... yap... went to treat lei^3 to see brokeback mountain today, on his 21st b'day... well, the 1st R21 movie for the both of us... how should i put it... hmmm... the newspapers' reviews for e movie is like: !!! and my review for e movie is like: ??? e movie didn't like come across to me... and it was like logically flawed, i would say... in comparison e other alternative movies (in my own words... alternative as in those non-blockbluster/romance/comedy or aka film festival kinda movie)... brokeback mountain isn't e best tt i've watched... nothing quite like Munich, Be With Me or Life is Beautiful...

oh ya... i almost forgot about something interesting tt happened in my recent blog absence... my unit got to take part in the upcoming army recruitment advertisement... by supplying e extras... and i was one of them... lol... well, not exactly sure if u'll get to see my face on tv (i'm quite sceptical...)... but anyways, the ad is gonna be airing on 31st march... so watch out!

and yes yes... mr tty... yr face appeared on e centrefold of this month's pioneer magazine... lol... actually nothing much... it's a photo showing e recent malaysian agong visit and yr crew ppl... well, i might take a photo of it and paste it on e blog for u to see... lol...