dun feel like blogging this wk... talked about changing my blog interface some posts ago... maybe will do it next wk... aniway... i might start typing out a little story of mine on a new blog perhaps sometime next week too... and brandon... some of my course mates sux too... watch out for next wk's post... tt is if i feel like blogging...

I am starting to feel miserable and uncomfortable in my new unit..... Dunnoe why... A lot of things in there are quite demanding physically, mentally and academically. My course is 12 weeks long and 1 week have just passed.. I really need lots and lots of TOLERANCE, ENDURANCE & PERSERVERANCE to survive this "ordeal".... I dun wish to downgrade or get out of this unit cos personally this unit is quite unique and the opreations they do are interesting.... But it is just the training and the pple there that puts me off...
After BMT and 2 weeks in my unit, my hatred for army life began to increase... I really hate this type of regimental and rigid lifestyle... Rules can't be bent, things cannot be done in another way... Also, u get treated like shit: commanders raising thier voice at you as if you are some kind of inferior being(if this happened in civilian life, i would have given that guy a punch in the face).
It is not that i cant swallow my pride or be subjected to forced treatment, I just dun like it becos i personally dun do that to pple... Well nvm, I guess this is part of life and i have no choice but to accept it. 2yrs of NS... A very long time b4 i can finally regain my freedom.. Once again, TOLERANCE, ENDURANCE & PERSERVERANCE are all that i need.......

got posted to my new unit this mon... didn't noe in the least wat to expect... but haha... found out tt it's just about the slackest vocation in the whole of armour... slack as it is, it's still an important role... gonna learn how to drive this babe of mine (which for yr info, weighs 11 tons... and floats too...)...

so shiok man... will be going to australia this mid-oct... it's gonna be a fun experience... i'm helping out in the NDP too... this yr i will be acting as an usher... and come next year... u'll get to see me drive my babe on the public road... well... u dun really get to see me cos i'll be stuck in one cramp corner driving the thing... haha...

If I protrayed her as a bad person...pls dun think so... but really she doesn't like me... yea so its my freaking own fault for feeling sucky...

Sigh

I hardly talk to her nowadays.. yet when both of us are online she wouldn't even say hi to me!!!! So you are thinking why don't I say hi to her? Cos I am always doing it so much that I really don't feel like doing it anymore.... Yes I want to talk to her but her indifference to my presence makes me reluctant to take the initiative... And about not talking to her anymore... To me its a serious problem yet to her it doesn't seem like any..... heartache man... and sometimes I just feel like a spare tyre.... ok maybe she doesn't treat me as one but I can't help but feel that way...

Song Yu you go it wrong la........... its not came online at the same time lo... I also don't want to explain further. And I wasn't enjoying myself....

I got posted to SISPEC. Back to tekong lo....... sigh... I dread what awaits me ahead....

nooooooooo... the block leave is almost over... going to a new camp soon... dun even noe where it is... guess it's one of those which is pretty ulu... aniway, just to let u noe... i'm going into armour! as a M113 operator some more... haha... next time i come out i'll have a tank driving license... lol...

yesterdae went to sentosa with my section... so lame... paid $3 to go there just to kick some volleyball and watch girls... left ard 12... really damn spastic man... wonder if i should have went for the outing in the 1st place... since the turnout wasn't tt great aniway...

so sad tt todae's JT outing was cancelled... nah... dun think tt's the correct word... more of frustrated... some of the ppl didn't even reply to my msgs... waste my $$$... knn... esp tt hh... dunnoe wat the hell he's doing lately... must be chio-ing his cha bo... everybody's so busy lately, wat with the girls working and the guys mysteriously disappearing to who-noes-where...

hope tt my job will be a 8 to 5 one... like tt would be so shiok... anyway, poor tty has to go back to tekong to drink tekong water and brandon got into the vocation tt he least want to go to... haha... oh no... wo1 zhe3 me4 ke2 yi3 zai4 ze4 li3 xing4 zai1 le4 huo4?

went to tty's place yesterdae... so qiao3... bra's lp and tty's joan went online at ard the same time... so there they were, talking and playing games with their xing1 shang4 ren2, while i tried to fine tune my own skill of self-entertainment... alas... my skill seemed to have gotten worse after i quit oac... must brush up on it...

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!!!!!! I GET POSTED TO COMBAT ENGINEERS UNIT.... What the freak?? Wah lau, this vocation is one of worst vocations in SAF man... Have to learn how to build the bridge in the murk dirty waters, clear minefields, set up claymore and stuff like that... WOAH!!! I am so "honoured" to be in this unit... Many of my seniors have told me they have broken limbs here and there due to lots of freaky accidents happening there. For instance, one of my seniors had his foot practically crushed cos a metal component of a bridge(which weighs duno how many tonnes) dropped on his foot. :< :< :<

Haiz, is heaven making fun of me? I broke my left arm before and now this stupid vocation wants me to carry heavy stuff. I cant even LIFT a stupid jerry can with my left arm.... HOW HOW HOW~!!!!!!!!!????????

aiyo... y sentosa so popular? tml, which is fri, my section (army friends) are going there, i organised an outing there for JT on sat and 16/02's having an outing there on sun... -.-'''

anyway, finally settled the uni application... not sure if i chose the correct courses... *shrugs* here goes (in order of preferance):
nus: sci, electrical eng, business admin, eng
ntu: accountancy, electrical & electronic eng, sci (edu), chem & biomolecular eng
think i most prob will end up in acc in ntu...

just a few more days and it's back to army life... haiz...