the previous few weeks had been a fast passing one.. 1 more week and it's the mid-term break.. last week was the week of presentations and this week, the week of quizzes and mid-term test.. hmm.. boring boring.. change topic..

was suddenly insipred to watch 1 litre of tears on youtube.. a nice jap drama tt was adapted from the real life strory of this young girl who was diagosed with the spinocerebellar athrophy disease.. highly recommended tt u watch it.. a tear-jerking show, so have tissues by your side..

once in a while, knowing the fact tt there is someone else on this earth who is less fortunate than you will make you thankful of the stuff tt you have.. and all problems tt you have just suddenly seem to pale in comparison..

but soon later, reality hits back and you wonder how to solve the problems tt u have on hand..

haha.. wat am i typing really? seems incoherent to me..

couldn't really seem to settle down and concentrate on my studies.. so many distractions.. computer games, newspapers, tv dramas.. or maybe it's just escapism.. escapism.. such a familiar situation.. but such a different context..

perhaps it's because tt yesterday was v-day.. i wonder what's wrong with me.. i remember how i used to be easily infatuated with the girls in my class back in secondary school.. but such infatuations have been lacking in presence for a long time.. afraid to be hurt again in relationships? likely.. but i guess one good thing tt has come out from the last few years is the fact tt i'm better aware of wat the character traits tt i look for in the opposite sex are.. my dream girl.. independant, has inner resilience, is more chatty than me (well tt's very easily satisfied aint it) and has a nice smile..

i guess tt isn't a v high demand, is it? had taken a look at meiju's blog earlier.. and was wondering about the views tt people hold when they enter into a relationship.. do they, perhaps unconsciously, deep down inside, enter into a relationship with the view tt it would not last long? tt it'll be just an experience? or do they go into a relationship for the long-run? i feel tt i'm personally currently looking for a relationship tt is long lasting ..

i think tt i've changed quite some bit these last few years.. became more introverted..

there's so many recurring themes in my life tt i think if i post any of them, it'll just seem to be a case of deja vu..

have been working very slightly on my next set of lyrics.. well, i really do not know how to number the lyrics anymore.. there's currently 2 sets of partially completed lyrics tt i have now.. but i guess one of them will eventually be scrapped to make way for the other.. such work on lyrics, i feel, shouldn't be dragged for too long a period.. lyrics writing should be a spontaneous affair.. pretty much like blogging.. once there is a time lag, the initial feeling tt u have attached to the lyrics or blog post just isn't there anymore..

recent dreams tt i have seem to have taken a more unpleasant tone.. not really sure if they could be called nightmares.. because i have somewhat, since i learnt about my innate ability to control dreams, felt tt nightmares are a thing of the past.. after all, i have been very successful in preventing my dreams from turning into nightmares, due to the fact tt nightmares-to-be are excellent catalysts to increasing my lucidity level.. this have helped me steer countless dreams away from taking up an ominous theme..

nonetheless, new things have been achieved once again in the realm of dream control.. one such thing is the reversal of time in the dream.. yes.. pretty fascinating stuff.. but no, u dun get to see the dream rewind in front of yr eyes.. i just rewinded myself straight to an earlier point in the dream and continued from there.. another thing, which i'm not exactly sure if it's a 1st in my personal dream control experience, is the change of scene.. well, quite literally it just means tt i changed the scene/setting of the dream..

just realised tt there r actually 5 ppl who r in e same tutorial class with me for all 4 modules.. and i had initially thought tt there was only 1.. but i guess tt's just pretty much typical of me.. oblivious to the stuff around me.. on autopilot mode most of the time..

english translation of one litre of tears, the diray..